My journey to balance family, work, and water polo.

His Voice

His Voice

I pause in front of the door. On the other side, you all wait. A spouse, sons and daughters, sometimes with their own small children in tow. Today it’s your husband and father you have come for. Yesterday it was someone else's mother. You have come from near and far,...

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Sixteen Redux

Sixteen Redux

There you are, in the big chair, half curled and snuggled up against me. A tangled clump of hair covers part of your face.  You’re somewhere between wake and sleep listening to Goodnight Moon and my made up stories of butterflies and rainbow fish. You are warmth to my...

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Sunrise

Sunrise

What do you do when you know someone is going to die? I'm not talking about death when it comes at the end of a long protracted illness or a terminal diagnosis. Or the final act at the end of a "good" life, when the body and mind have ultimately given way. I'm talking...

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Change Redux

Change Redux

It started almost as a little hum... a vibration in my head, felt more than heard.  A connection between some deep part of my brain straight to inside my chest. In the days leading up to my college graduation I mostly ignored it. Easy enough in the midst of goodbye...

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Walk with me…

Walk with me…

Walk with me, why don't you? It's about time, don't you think? We have been avoiding this for quite a while. But it is best to bring this out from the shadows and into the light. Let's take a walk... Thru a part of my day. But be careful. You won't like what you see....

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Ch Ch Ch Changes..

Ch Ch Ch Changes..

“Ch-ch-changesDon’t want to be a richer manCh-ch-ch-ch-changesTurn and face the strangeCh-ch-changesJust gonna have to be a different manTime may change meBut I can’t trace time” -David Bowie Months have passed since I last wrote.  Thoughts, musings, topics have...

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Bittersweet

There you are amongst the crowd. One of thirty freshman.  And my breath is taken from me. For a moment, the briefest moment, everything else on my mind fades away. The whirlwind of stress that has been the background beat for the last several months is now muted, and...

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Family

It's been a rough day. No...more accurate a rough afternoon. Being home on "vacation" is usually not a good thing. My presence in the house is disruptive, changing the normal routines and patterns that have been established by my family.  I throw things off, challenge...

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Focus

I pull into the driveway, trying to leave that last of my work day behind. As I enter the house, I am greeted by the all too familiar semi-chaotic scene. Lola comes jumping into the hallway, happy to greet, while my kids stay somewhat immobile in their current...

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Harbinger

Harbinger

 Harbinger : "one that presages or foreshadows what is to come" It had become somewhat of a fixture in our dining room. I'd pass by it pretty much daily. Can't help notice it. It's not small, my bike, given that I'm 6'3" and it's a custom frame. And although when...

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